Ten Commandment of God ( Exodus 20 : 2-17 ) 1. I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery 2. Worship no God but me 3. You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God 4. Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy 5. Honor your father and your mother 6. You shall not murder 7. You shall not commit adultery. 8. You shall not steal. 9. You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor 10.You shall not covet your neighbor's house. Let God's Word and my Life to portray what God can and had done in your life by His Authority Let All Rejoice for God Almighty

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Wow....It's been real long since I last posted. Since I am free, I will post something..

1st event for the Dec is none other than the enlistment on 12 Dec to BMTC Sch 1. This is pretty exciting plus a bit of fearing. Exciting because I will meet new people and the kind of people who are very different. Fearful because there a a high uncertainty probability. Haha... What a mixed kind of feelings..

2nd event will be Christmas Service. Looking forward to Christmas Service!!! haha...

3rd event will be meeting up with people. I want to meet up with people to chill, to help them. I do not know how much I can help but just wanted to help people. Maybe at this current position, I cant say much about helping people in cell, I do really want to be that listening ear to everyone. Sensitivity issues are present..Yet I felt that I wanted to help and meet up. So dilemma.. Haix...haha....Well...left today, Mon, tues, Wed and Thurs left. Fri is the day...Left about 4.5days.. Hope to make full use of the time bah... I pray for strength to withstand all temptations and just want to be faithful to God. Amen

Haix...Whatever things are...Just leave it to God bah....haha....

Signed Off @2:04 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I guess if you look back my posts to Dec last year. You probably will see the post on Facing the Giants.

Today, I was tempted initially to look at things I should see. God spoke to me when I searched for Corrinne May "5 loaves and 2 fishes". What is more is that I review some of the scenes in Facing the Giants. I cant help crying and sharing about the movie. I viewed the few excerpts of the video. I was like,"God, I didnt trust you enough". In this period of study leave, why didnt I be faithful and trusted on to my own strength by studying prolonged hours? I am sincerely Sorry Lord.
There are times whereby I felt God wasnt speaking to me until a few days back when God gave me a dream. I dreamt of myself preaching and praying for people although people are leaving. Today, I see the trials on the coach in the Facing the Giants. I am really confronted and encouraged. How much do I trust God? I knew God has been speaking into my life. I believe these wont be able to come without prayers from my cell and people who care for me. I just realised that whenever when we feel righteous, could it be from our pride due to my competence in the area?
Lord, Forgive me of my sins. Let me embrace You again with love. Not to trust on my strength but Yours Lord.

Thank You for the FAcing the Giants. It has definitely confronted me. God, thank You. I commit my all to You. I am no longer myself but living for You. Tear me down Lord to mend me again. Just like how changes are done when we need to dismantle the whole part to replace it with new stuff.
I need You Father. All the time, I also struggle with who I worship coz inner voice has been debating. Now I see that You are moving. You told me,"Who you are worshipping is from the heart"(i.e if u think who u are worshipping, you will be worshipping that). Thank You!

I believe my heart has been humbled. I want to Honour and Glorify You. Will You come and be with me till the end of the age? Guide me Lord. Let me press on to You. Not my own strength.

Thank You Lord...

Signed Off @8:50 AM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

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Monday, September 29, 2008

Rounding up For the Month of September

Although I think there isn't much people who look to my blog, I think I will just update and round up the month of September.

These few weeks in the month of September comprises of many ups and downs. It was never easy to overcome the hurdles. However, by God's Grace, I was able to tide through those down moments and praise the Lord in those up down.

A more specific explanation is the temptations. I had been tempted quite many times this week(I think there are at least 3). However, God has been Gracious. He has brought a person to me. The person is none other than Benjamin Yuan. He entered into my life by recommending me a book titled, "Breaking Free from Sexual Addictions and the Healing Power of Jesus". This book is really awesome. I can never forget the stories that were thought in the book. Russel(the author) was so explicit in the interpretation in both biblical views and psychological views. I think I learned a lot. 2 weeks of reading this book has definitely allow me to understand myself and others better. Thank You God!!
This is by far, the down moments of my life that God raised me up from the guilt that results from these temptations.

Good moments are moments where I can reach out to God so much more. I am able to listen and hear God by being more sensitive. Although there are times which I do not know whether the views/word/visions were from me or from God, I believe God has definitely came to minister to me in the form of thoughts, perspectives. Thank You God!!

There are more ups and downs which I don't think I have much time to explain more. All I can say is that JC life has made me realised how cruel life sometimes can be. Cruel in a sense when friends are sometimes so sarcastic. But Who Am I to judge? Have I not done the same to them? Haix. To people out there, don't follow my footsteps to judge. Learn not to judge anymore. Let God be the judge.

In my struggle with God in unison of heart mind soul, God has definitely been here with me and reassuring me. I always found peace reading the word when my heart and my mind are no longer in unison in the praise of the Lord. Thank You God for being so faithful.

I shall end my round up with this. Even though you may fall time and time. God accept you for who you are. Live for God and let your actions be pleasing to God.

I pray for All people who see my blog to have a good sense of how God can work in your life where you may feel self-worthless. God is there for you. I pray a word of Blessing into your life by the name of Jesus. Amen

Signed Off @8:29 PM

Monday, July 07, 2008

I think I am not "cut" for Evangelism yet.

I think I am not "cut" for Evangelism now. This is because the "cell" session has been quite bad. One of the things that my cell leader, Kok Hong, said minister to me. That is what I had been told to do(speaking to Pastor,etc) but I didn't speak to them at all.

God's Will God's Way not MY way....

I felt really confronted by the Holy Spirit about it.

God, I desire for things of cell to occur in YJC but things aren't getting right.

Father, I ask that You will teach me what to do. not to focus onto my own ways but Yours. In Jesus Name I pray Amen

Signed Off @7:47 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Yesterday was a super awesome day. I was being prophecise over by Mary, a prophetess. It was really awesome. Music, Shepherd, Training, Decision-making, Travelling. All things are so awesome. The travelling is like a confirmation of evangelist.....Wow...I am doing something awesome for God's Kingdom. Shall do the training to become an evangelist.. Purpose to be evangelist....Should I then take on Theologist course in University... That will be like Bible College like that....hehe...haha...

Yesterday, Cell Leader, KH, lent me some of the notes on the masterplan of Evangelism....Was so wonderful...The most impactful of all the various plans, I found the part about a few years of training a few close disciples so that their lives can be reproduced rather than to have mass recruitment to keep the program going...hehe...

AWESOME DAY!!!! TODAY'S FATHER'S DAY!!!

LET THIS BE A PRAYER TO ALL FATHERS ON EARTH.

Thank You Heavenly Father for giving us these father who will guide us as you empower them with the authority us as student. Though words are little but the love never dies. the method of showing love is different but they meant well and love us just like You did. Every father, like our Heavenly Father, shows us unconditional love. I pray that all fathers on earth shall receive a word from the Father and that they will have a new resolution about things in their lives and all done in Glory and Honour of our Heavenly Father. I pray this in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen!!

Signed Off @12:39 PM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Its been long since I last blog. Today I had some reflections after watch Chronicles of Narnia. I thought it will be very meaningful if I pen it down here. Before, I go into that, I shall talk about my life.

Many may have known that I am in a time of struggle with the Lord. I am struggling with my temptation. Just 1 month ago, I commit the sin again after 5 months after I was delivered. I commit another fast to the Lord once again. This time round, I wasn't sure if He was there. I told myself, the Lord has been with me and I pray throughout that the fast will be of H onour and Glory to the Lord. Recently, I just had my Block Test for G.P. I wasn't sure what to write but I wrote on the question," Good decision are made from the mind rather than the heart. What do you think?" I didn't know why I attempt it. It is probably something that was close to my heart. I did not know what will happen but I will just commit to the Lord how things may happen.

Just yesterday, I was reading 1 Cor. 1 -4 as I went to clean the wake me up room with my cell group. The study bible with the notes. I remember one particular note that says, not retaliate but endure. I also remember another that says not just do with Human Intelligence but of the Spirit. I do not know what it really meant actually. At that point of time, I just know that I can't trust my mind cause it is purely human intelligence. Shortly after it, I went for service. I somehow sense the Lord saying, " so what being spiritual when you can't follow my Word of helping others". At that point of time, I was really ashamed of myself and surrender it all to the Lord. I prostulate and said Lord, Forgive me for all the wrongs that I had done. I somehow felt that these 2 sort of clashes but one thing in common is the Spirit.

Today, spending time with cell group was not too bad. I was as usual quiet. I don't know why but I just don't seem able to fit in at that point of time. When we go up to the cinema, as I watch the progress, I first find about how corrupted and how evil man is. The scene whereby the king was giving the instructions to kill the prince. I simply do not know what else to describe a man's heart. When I saw the scene of lucy seeing the Lion(forget what it meant), it reminds me of the scene that the church showed once about the holy grail when the book says walk on air. It simply remind me of Faith. When I see the scene of the king peter fighting the troops of the enemy, I was really pleasantly surprised about how he continued on. The Tomb area was like sealed. And given the situation, he just lead all the animals to fight it bravely. Some may bravely die as martyr. I was like, am I brave to die as a martyr for the Lord? I seen how king peter really did his best at the battlefield just like the one in the fortification of the enemy. Many died in the fortification and king peter was really sad. Temptation was there to free a spirit to help but it was dismissed when friends helped. So king peter fought and when he instructed lucy to find the Lion for reinforcement, he believed that lucy will come back with reinforcement. True enough, they believe in faith that lucy will come back. The battle was won by the Narian... It just showed that even in our deepest struggles and situation when we do all out and believe that God will come with His strength, He will come and help you. you may be in the losing end on the surface but when the Lord comes, He will save you and turn the situation around for the Lord can summon all His angels to help you just like how the Lion summon the waters and trees.

I seriously felt that God was speaking to me. From 1 Cor. to Church Service to this movie. I sense that the Lord speaks," Ronald, do not rely on the intelligence that you have but believe that the Spirit will bring you through. In faith, you will wait upon my name and I will come at my perfect timing to help you. Faith without deeds are dead. " I just felt that this was the message that the Lord speaks.

I believe He will continue to speak and I want to be with Him evermore. Thank You Lord for the week for the time. I come to You with thanksgiving. Amen

Signed Off @6:57 PM