Ten Commandment of God ( Exodus 20 : 2-17 ) 1. I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery 2. Worship no God but me 3. You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God 4. Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy 5. Honor your father and your mother 6. You shall not murder 7. You shall not commit adultery. 8. You shall not steal. 9. You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor 10.You shall not covet your neighbor's house. Let God's Word and my Life to portray what God can and had done in your life by His Authority Let All Rejoice for God Almighty

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Today was a great day.
First I praise Lord for giving me the great day which made my day. Hallelujah

I was encouraged by my CT today to take up 4H2 Subject and I accepted it. I took 4H2 subject, Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics, Economics

Actually, I found out that I might be ok at the current moment with the 3H2 and 1 H1 subject. However, I am going to take up the challenge to take 4 H2 subjects. Although I know that taking 4H2 subject is tedious, is tough as I also need to juggle my time in NPCC. I am confident that the concepts taught at the various H2 Subjects will be absorbed fast as I knew that Lord placed great friends around me to guide me in my lives.

Now, I would like to say a prayer.

Dear Lord Jesus,

I am grateful to Lord who had came into my life and granted me with many great friends who really help me out in the times of need. At this juncture, I knew Lord give me the opportunity to challenge myself ahead to soar in my lives. I'm grateful and sing praises to you,Lord. Hallelujah. I might be struggling with concepts at the current moment but Lord, I know that You had placed tutors which will mould me to score better in my life. I pray that Lord will grant me blessings that will allow me to overcome the stress I might faced by taking 4H2 subjects and the pressure that I might faced in my life with JC and NPCC. I pray that Lord, You will back me up in the times of need and grant me salvation.
this, I pray in Jesus' Name, Amen

Hallelujah..

May whoever read this be blessed. Amen

Signed Off @11:10 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Today was a great day initially but end up unhappy.

I was going to YJC for lesson and happy that my CT gave me a red packet for the effort to go down to the Annual X-country last friday.. Three Cheers for my CT.

However,things became worse. Physics Lecture was cancelled. I was very happy when I go to OPSS for NPCC Activity

However, at the start the NCOs-to-be was freaking slow. I shouted. They took the Test and I was busy marking form 4-5pm. I was disappointed that only 1 person passed the test.

Next was the RT. RT was supposed to start at 5.45 to 6.15 but at 6.15, the cadets are still at the grouping stage. I was fed up and asked NCOs to cancel

After cancelling, the NCOs still did not get the message and I shouted again for the 2nd time.

I was so fed up and screamed even at the sec 1s. I hope the Sec 1s wont be terrified and run away.

Dear Father,

I had sinned against You in various ways. My mind lost control during RT. I was out of control and I am really sorry for my actions. After shouting, I actually feel like crying. I don't know if the problem lies with me or the cadets.

Father, I seek for Your Anointing to bring me to greater heights of my life.

I pray in the name of the Father, the Son and of the Holy Spirit, Amen

Signed Off @8:53 PM

Friday, February 16, 2007

Today was a tiring day yet informative.
I went to East Coast Park today for the YJC Annual X-country.. But pple u noe wat?? I took 2hrs to go there and 2hrs to come back home!!!haix...it was a long journey....

After that was the cleaning up of my house..I was asked to do lots of household chores...I was dead tired but had to go on for the OPSS CI meeting

Went to OPSS CI meeting, we discuss a lot of things. The most informative was the ATC coordinator updating the Area. haix. kena 1 big role when i step up...sad..

Dear Lord, May I have your anointing which will allow me to breakthrough all difficulties that might come in my way in my CI-ship..In jesus' name i pray, Amen

Signed Off @11:41 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Today was a great day.. I enjoyed the tutorials ever in my life only today.. It was like so fun la...GP lesson doing Debate and research.. Sad to say, I was the one rebarking.haha..Tomorrow is NPCC trng. I really wonder how many pple will turn up.

Dear Lord Jesus,

I had come this far with Your and Father's Grace. It was because You do not allow me to sink into sins long. You told me in the deepest side of my heart, " Nothing beats the truth of things. Truth should be present at all times. " This was evident when I told my GP tutor that someone in our class came only for the test. Father sent me these words which had allowed me to recover from the sins I had committed. Be it betrayal to friend or sth of that sort. Father had believed in the power of Truth. As quoted in the Holy Bible,NIV, Proverbs but cant rmb the chapters and verses. I rmb this verse " Hard work bring profit, mere talk bring poverty ". This was the greatest verse which had an impact in our lives. This provide a direction in our lives. NPCC was really training ground for me. I had seen lots of cases whereby cadets don't turn up for various reasons. It really reflect the kind of influence it had for different kinds of squads. This could be a trial of God. He might want to test if I had the patience to train my cadets. I admit that I was never a good instructor in the eyes of cadets. In the eyes of Father, I think I never one also. I scolded the cadets for the slightest mistake made in NPCC. A lot of impact could be seen. This was especially so for the Sec 4s and Sec 2s now in which I'm worried about. Sec 4s, being their instructors for 1.5 years, I understand them well. They don't like me for I shouted at them. There were times which I really broke down. But who cares about me? Given the current sec 2s, I was emotional. I admit I was harsh and that I had created a little of that "fear" in them. Sometimes, I really break down. Why? Lord, It was really incurring my wrath when I see things are not done properly. Thus Lord, I seek forgiveness. I am really helpless facing a group of cadets who do not really listen to me. This is because I really don't know what I can do. Being strict with them, they grumbled about how strict I am or unreasonable I am. Being Soft with them, they come over our heads. Thus, it is really hard to strike a balance.Negative impacts were seen for my past acts. I'm now trying to change my style. But things aren't getting any better.

Lord, I seek for forgiveness for my past acts and that through You Grace that I may be granted salvation in my life. This, I pray in Jesus' Name, through the Glory of God's Son, Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.

Signed Off @10:26 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Lord,

I'm so troubled... I had now seen that I was not cut for a Cadet Inspector. I was like making mistakes all along. Though I know CI make mistakes as well. I was sad. My NPCC matters now was getting from bad to worse. I really feel sad. Cadets of all levels are now on a rise for revolution and the fact that they are too pampered that we can really do nothing. Many a times I asked myself or rather Lord, " What Have I done which causes this? ", " Was it me who caused everything to be like that?", " Does the problems really lies on me?". I had asked myself several questions of such sorts. I found the answer. It was me to a certain extent and the cadets to a certain extent.

It was me to a certain extent as I scolded them since they enter into NPCC. My interest was to ensure that the task was done. Cadets was also quite pampered. They complain with the little bit of hardwork.I really dunno wat 2 sae.

Lord, may You tell me what to do? May I have Your anointing and May Your Holy Spirit befall me to guide me in my life. In jesus' name i pray, Amen

Signed Off @7:10 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I hope with the the word with lord here will enable me to let off my troubles and hope that people who had looked at this will have a turning point in their life.

Dear Lord Jesus,
I am currently troubled by things that happens around me. One of which was NPCC matters, the other YJC matters and last but not least my life.

Pertaining to NPCC matters was my relationship with my NCOs. It is disheartening to see that an NCO could not work with the CI. Any instruction that was given me was violently objected by him. I feel sad at that very point in time. I really don't know what I had done which made NCOs don't want to listen to me.
What was more frustrating was my cadets. My Sec 1s, though new to NPCC, should know the expectations in NPCC. However, it was never the case. I know that I had frighten them in a way or another. This is because they were stunned when I gave them the command to stand at Attention.
Next was Sec 2s, I really feel like crying ( though I know I shouldn't cry ). It was very disheartening also to see cadets not serious. I know there are times that we need to have fun but there are also times that we need to be serious. Nevertheless, they never understood where the line should stand ( In my context ). I really don't know what to say.
Sec 3s was the most ensuring squad I had seen.

Pertaining to YJC matters, I was disturbed by the difference of attitude of my classmates. I cannot say that i'm perfect but the sense of urgency in them was not there in my context. Now came the turmoil of release of GCE 'O' Level results. I was still deciding whether I should take on an academic course. I was so bonded with my tutors but not really the classmates.

Pertaining to Life matters, sometimes i feel that i was just passing motion in life. I seems to have surrender my life to someone that I feel that my life is now a routine.

LORD, MAY I HAVE THE ANSWERS TO ALL THIS? LORD, MAY YOU ENLIGHTEN ME. I'M FEELING LOST AT THIS POINT OF MY LIFE. I NEED YOUR GUIDANCE AND ANIONTMENT.

THIS, I PRAY IN JESUS' NAME, THROUGH THE GLORY OF GOD'S SON, LORD JESUS CHRIST, AMEN

Signed Off @7:27 PM