Ten Commandment of God ( Exodus 20 : 2-17 ) 1. I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery 2. Worship no God but me 3. You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God 4. Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy 5. Honor your father and your mother 6. You shall not murder 7. You shall not commit adultery. 8. You shall not steal. 9. You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor 10.You shall not covet your neighbor's house. Let God's Word and my Life to portray what God can and had done in your life by His Authority Let All Rejoice for God Almighty

Sunday, May 13, 2007

DEAR LORD, HEAVENLY FATHER,

I AM VERY DISAPPOINTED AND SAD AND ANGRY. WHEN I RECEIVE THE EMAIL ON THE NPCC TRAINING PROGRAM LAST NIGHT, I COMMENTED AS I COULD NOT SEE THE EFFORT PUT IN. THIS IS ESPECIALLY SO WHEN THE CUT AND PASTE WAS NOT NICELY DONE AND THE TEMPLATE FOR THE LESSON PLAN WAS ALL NOT THERE. ALL THE COMPONENTS!
I THOUGHT I HAD CLEARLY SPELT OUT IN MY 1ST EMAIL, THEN IT CAME AGAIN AND HARSH WORDS WERE USED. BUT THEY COULD NOT UNDERSTAND! THEY EVEN CONFRONTED ME AND SAID THAT WHO I THINK I AM? LISTEN TO ME JUST BECAUSE OF MY RANK. I WAS SO ANGRY AT THAT POINT OF TIME, IF YOU CAN DO THE THINGS I NEED TO DO, YOU BE CI, I WILL M.I.A ON THE SPOT. YOU ARE SO GOOD, DO ALL THE THINGS YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@!!!@!!
I WAS SO SAD THAT MY WORD WAS NOT A CONVICTION BUT A CONDEMNATION. CONVICTION TO TELL THEM HOW THINGS WORK OUT NEXT TIME. CONDEMNATION TO CRITICISE THEM. HOW I WISH I WAS NEVER YOUR CI!!!!!!!!!
I WAS EVEN MORE DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF. I HAD FAILED AS A CI. I FAILED TO GROOM THE JUNIORS TO THE ONE I WISH THEY WILL BE. I AM USELESS. NO ONE LISTENS TO ME ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!
O LORD, I WAS DISAPPOINTED. I PRAY THAT YOU MAY ALLOW ME TO GO. TO GO INTO THE WORLD OF YOURS TO LIVE WITH YOU AND EAT WITH YOU LITERALLY WHERE THERE ARE NO PAINS, NO FEELINGS. MY HEARTS HAS BECOME HARDER AND HARDER AS THIS HAD DRILLED ME.
LORD, THOUGH I KNOW THIS IS A LEARNING POINT FOR ME BUT I CAN'T HELP FEELING THE ANGER AND DISAPPOINTMENT. I PRAY THAT YOU MAY BRING ME TO YOUR WORLD AND LEAD ME TO A LIFE WHERE THESE PAINS MAY BE ALLEVIATED. I AM TIRED. I NEED A REST FROM ALL THIS MATTERS. LORD, GRANT ME THAT WISH. IN JESUS' NAME I PRAY, AMEN.
I ALSO PRAY THIS IN THE NAME OF THE FATHER, THE SON AND OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, AMEN

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