Ten Commandment of God ( Exodus 20 : 2-17 ) 1. I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery 2. Worship no God but me 3. You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God 4. Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy 5. Honor your father and your mother 6. You shall not murder 7. You shall not commit adultery. 8. You shall not steal. 9. You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor 10.You shall not covet your neighbor's house. Let God's Word and my Life to portray what God can and had done in your life by His Authority Let All Rejoice for God Almighty

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Everyday is a day where my ups and downs begins.

I am now in a delimma whether I should take up National Youth Achievement Award ( Gold ). My timetable seems to fit. However, my schedule is considered tight le. I dunno if I can hold on. I simply dun understand why I am slacking.. In my 1st 3mth in YJC, I was like chionging everything. However, now, I was so different. I wasn't like in my past, doing all the tutorials ahead of time, doing lecture notes before lectures. I feel so lethargic. It wasn't felt during my 3 mth course.

OPSS NPCC was a CCA which I hope to excel in. However, it was never the case. OPSS NPCC was like my 2nd home. I was looking forward to every training. However, my opportunity cost was keep thinking of NPCC and feel as abovementioned. Being a CI was never easy, however, through times where I will go through the mills and turn out strong. No one on this earth never gone through the mill and turn out stong. I tried to commit to OPSS NPCC. Now I know that a system is in place and my NCOs are ready. I feel that my job is done halfway. I know that I had an ATC upcoming as the coordinator. I was afraid yet look towards it. OPSS NPCC NCO 2007 was quite a good batch. Hopefully, through this batch of NCOs, the unit will soar to Silver or even Gold award in UOPA.

My life was never a bed of roses or rather everyone's life. Being late for Training every wednesday, I was ashamed of myself. However, I got to live with it. My college ends at 3.30pm every wednesday. I really want to make a prayer for everyone around me.

Dear Lord Jesus,

I have been dampen by many things in my life. Especially when the Sec 2 Squad of OPSS NPCC was like not listening to my instructions. I had relax my way of approaches however it went down the drain. It really shows that I had to be hard again which will hurt my heart again. My life in YJC and my life in OPSS NPCC doesn't seem to match. I also feel lethargic. I pray that my life will be improved by You,Lord. In my NPCC career in OPSS, I do hope that Lord, You will grant salvation to the sec 2 squad such that they may be salvage to turn out to be the best and not labelled as parasites or incapable NCOs when they take over. In my college, I pray that You, Lord may allow me to juggle my time well especially everything is on the track already. I also pray that my ATC will run well as well as the Sec 2 side. These, I pray in Jesus' Name. Amen.

Signed Off @7:15 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Today is Sabbath. Sabbath is the a day in the week that God reflect in the bible that all should rest. My mind was never able to rest. I had tried to solve the meeting venue by requesting from MRs Ng, Principal of YJC to loan the premises to us. My things went through my mind.

When NCO camp came, I thought I was a robot. I slept at 4.30am on the 1st night and woke up at 6.45am. 2nd day was even better. Slept at 4.15am, woke up at 6.30am. But I wasn't. I drop dead on the 2nd day. but manage to pass through second day.

These few days, I feel sad. ATC meeting started. Though I am the Asst Coordinator, but because I am still new as a CI. I couldnt really contribute something that will help.

Next day might be a disaster year for OPSS. As far as I know, I might be MIA for "A" Levels. Shuling and Xiangting seems to be MIA soon for attachment or even FYP. Left behind Sheng Xiang and Wei Loon. With no input of CIs from the current batch of sec 4s, I'm afraid that OPSS might not have the pillar of strength to hold them up. Though a new unit, we had broken record. Just 9 years of establishment, OPSS NPCC had a history of making IUQC into the top 10. I dunno if the current sec 3s are willing to take part in this competition with the heart and soul. I really want to just tell all of them. Notes are given to you. I'll be the facilitator and only touch up on the further details. Fadly will be another facilitator to cover up my duties for some days, i release later than him.

4H2 Life is about to commence in 2days time'. I dunno if I can cope but all I can do is to give the best shot of me. If I'm fated not to take 4H2, no matter what I do, it will not happen. For Father had already plough the foundation of the path that He wants me to talk. I pray in Jesus' Name that OPSS NPCC will stand strong forever and ever and my 4H2 life will be strong and domineering. Amen.

Signed Off @11:28 AM